The sun beat down on my already tanned skin as I wandered around the deserted dirt roads. Dust kicked up into clouds around my feet as I floated past farms and factories, my headphones masking the distant hum of electricity from packing machines. I constantly flicked between two playlists on Spotify; my Writers playlist and my Illinois playlist. My brain shuffled between some of the amazing memories from this summer, road trips and bonfires with my camp friends, to ideas for my latest novel draft. Every so often, my unwritten/unposted blog posts would sneak up and begin to take over.
This summer has been insane and the past two months have been non-stop for me. I’ve zig-zagged across America and then dived headfirst into Australian life. Everything in an attempt to figure out who I want to be. When I left England at the end of May, my parents took me to the airport and we hugged goodbye before I left to head through security and into the unknown. “Find your happy.” My mum said, brushing back my hair.
The past two months of travel have been a lot for me and I wanted to move through it without any added stresses or pressures which is why I haven’t really made much use of my blog. I’ve been trying to live in the moment and spend all my time doing something so that I don’t have to think. I’ve spent any downtime I’ve had getting back into my once favourite pastime of reading, (yesterday I managed a massive 14 chapters of A Court of Mist and Fury!) And also I have been working on my exercising and healthy eating, (I’ve lost 10lbs this month alone and 30lbs this year!)
I still feel as though I have a long way to go in figuring out what I want but slowly, as the days go on, I’m working out what is and isn’t good for me. Writing has always been a release for me and something I love, but when I have a lot to do, it becomes an easy form of self- punishment to take the hobby away from me. My brain is very good at convincing itself that I don’t deserve to write because there’s always something else I should probably be doing instead. However, I’m learning to put writing and exercise on a higher level of priority in my life. Both are habits I push back when I feel overwhelmed but both help me to feel better when I push myself to commit to them. And feeling better has to become my top priority for once in my life.
Now, onto my travels! Luckily, I’ve made plenty of notes on my adventures this summer so although they won’t necessarily be ‘live’, starting tomorrow I’ll begin posting about the amazing things I’ve done in the past couple of months! I’m really excited to tell you everything I can.